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Ms. Green:
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Hello, Doctor Balis.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hello, Anna. I'm glad you were able to make it today.
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Ms. Green:
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Yeah, life's been...but I have all the time...
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Dr. Balis:
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I'm not following you, Anna.
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Ms. Green:
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Sorry.
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Dr. Balis:
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How's Kathy?
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Ms. Green:
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I don't know exactly.
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Dr. Balis:
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Is she still in the hospital?
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Ms. Green:
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Yes, but I heard she'll be released by next week.
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Dr. Balis:
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You heard?
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Ms. Green:
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I'm not really allowed to visit her now.
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Dr. Balis:
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What? Why not?
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Ms. Green:
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They told me that if I knew Kathy's relatives, I should try to contact them and tell them what happened to her.
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Dr. Balis:
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I agree. You had to tell Kathy's Aunt Helen what happened.
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Ms. Green:
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Yes, well...
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Dr. Balis:
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Are you having problems with Helen?
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Ms. Green:
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No, no. Helen is being as nice as she could be. She knows the whole story and is sort of on my side. She's very grateful to me for taking Kathy in and supporting her and stuff.
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Dr. Balis:
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So what's the problem?
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Ms. Green:
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Well, Kathy sort of has this grandmother, remember?
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Dr. Balis:
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Yes. She's the woman that Kathy lived with before moving in with you and Martin, right?
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Ms. Green:
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She hates my guts. She blames me for what happened to her precious dear Kathy! She went off on me in the hospital. It was horrible. Helen tried to come to my rescue, but...all the nurses and doctors now think that I'm Kathy's pimp or something. She made it sound like I pushed Kathy into doing S&M for money just to pay me back her debt. I kept her from living in the streets, and now I'm responsible not only for her choice of profession but for...just for this whole mess. They all think I'm some sort of a monster. I hope I never see any of these people ever again!
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Dr. Balis:
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I'm sorry, Anna.
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Ms. Green:
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And now the police are questioning me again: "Did I get a percentage from Kathy's business?" I thought I did a good deed; just think what could have happened to her if she was just out there by herself. I know for a fact that she wouldn't have gone back to Helen or that psychotic grandmother of hers.
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Dr. Balis:
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Do the police think...
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Ms. Green:
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I don't know what they think. I had to go back there several times. I tell them the same story over and over again. What do they want from me? And I don't know how they found out that I went with Kathy to her appointments a few times.
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Dr. Balis:
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They asked you about that?
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Ms. Green:
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I said that it was just two times really: it was the couple thing and the all women session. And I didn't participate at all. I just watched and was sort of there for Kathy's safety. But they kept asking me if I was into it, if I got off on watching Kathy work.
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Dr. Balis:
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Here are the tissues.
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Ms. Green:
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First, I told them no. I didn't think they had any way of finding out. But they kept pressing and pressing. They told me they knew about everything so I might as well just tell the truth. But so what? Even if I did get off on watching, does that mean I did something wrong?
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Dr. Balis:
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I don't think you did anything wrong, Anna. I have a feeling the police were just trying to pressure you into saying...
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Ms. Green:
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It's all that grandmother's fault. She just came and told them horrible things about me. And who are they going to believe, me or that little gray-haired old woman?
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Dr. Balis:
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Well...
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Ms. Green:
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I met her once, maybe twice. I thought she was a nice old lady who didn't believe in doing maintenance on her house and that's all. What did I know? I didn't even know that Kathy was related to her in any way. Kathy lied about everything. I didn't know!
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Dr. Balis:
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Calm down, Anna. The police aren't accusing you of anything, are they?
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Ms. Green:
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I don't know.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did Helen talk with the police?
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Ms. Green:
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She must have; they talked with everybody. They've even subpoenaed SII's phone logs.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did you ever call Kathy at her S&M sessions from work?
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Ms. Green:
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No, I never needed to until this last time. I told them that, but they wanted to see the records anyway. I had to explain the whole thing to Julian. He's livid--he doesn't want SII to be involved in any scandal. I thought they were really nice at first. They made me believe that they really cared and wanted to find this guy. But now I feel like I'm in some sort of a witch hunt, and I didn't do anything.
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Dr. Balis:
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Anna...
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Ms. Green:
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And Julian told me to take a few days off so I can get a chance to get myself together. But I think he just wants me to stay away because he's worried about the publicity. They haven't even said anything about this in the newspapers or on TV. He's blowing this whole thing out of proportion. And I hate staying home and worrying and thinking...I haven't been able to sleep. I have these horrible nightmares...
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Dr. Balis:
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You sound very tired and stressed.
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Ms. Green:
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That's what Julian said.
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Dr. Balis:
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I think he's right. You've known him for a long time, would he try to...
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Ms. Green:
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I don't know, I don't know.
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Dr. Balis:
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Would you please sit down?
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Ms. Green:
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I feel so jumpy. Helen came over to the house and got all of Kathy's things out. I don't know why that freaked me out so. It's like everything is out of control. And the police want me to go to this leather parade or something. Or is it a festival?
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Dr. Balis:
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What are you talking about?
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Ms. Green:
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They want me to go with one of their undercover officers and try to spy or something.
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Dr. Balis:
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The police want you to attend some S&M event to see if you can find some information about Kathy's attacker?
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Ms. Green:
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So I have to go. And I don't want to. I don't think I ever will want to again. But they think that I'll have a better chance of learning something because everyone knows that Kathy and I were together. And the S&M community is not on particularly friendly terms with the police.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm.
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Ms. Green:
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But I keep picturing Kathy in that hotel room, and Helen wants me to help them, too. But they are all so...they just want to get me involved somehow. And I don't want to, Doctor Balis. I've had enough. I just want them to all leave me alone. And Kathy wrote that...
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Dr. Balis:
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Here's a tissue box. What did Kathy do?
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Ms. Green:
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When I was at the hospital with her last week, she wrote me...she still can't really talk. It's so horrible.
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Dr. Balis:
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What did Kathy...
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Ms. Green:
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She wrote that I should be happy--I'm finally getting rid of her and could have my mother over for dinner without worrying. It's just too much.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did you tell your parents what happened?
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Ms. Green:
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No. They don't even know that Kathy was living with me. Can you just imagine...oh, god!
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Dr. Balis:
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Anna, please try...
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Ms. Green:
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I'm sorry, I'll try to sit down. I didn't notice that I was pacing again.
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Dr. Balis:
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That's okay. Have you tried taking melatonin to help you sleep?
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Ms. Green:
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No, I forgot. I'll try it tonight. I don't remember if it worked last time.
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Dr. Balis:
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Just try it again. Call me if it doesn't work.
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Ms. Green:
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I guess.
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Dr. Balis:
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Where is this S&M event?
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Ms. Green:
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It's in some alley in the city. It's supposed to be really hardcore. I probably won't even know anyone there. It's all so pointless.
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Dr. Balis:
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When is it happening?
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Ms. Green:
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It's on the twenty-sixth.
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Dr. Balis:
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Of this month?
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Ms. Green:
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Yes.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see. Do they think it's at all dangerous for you to go?
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Ms. Green:
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I think it is. I don't want that guy to find me. I...
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Dr. Balis:
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It's all right. If you really don't think you can do this, just say no. They can't force you.
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Ms. Green:
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I know. But Helen...
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Dr. Balis:
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She'll understand. And I'm sure there are a few policemen who are members of the community anyway, don't you think?
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Ms. Green:
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Maybe.
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Dr. Balis:
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I think you are very tired and emotionally worn out, Anna. It's probably not a good idea for you to go. I can call the police for you, if you like.
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Ms. Green:
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I guess. Maybe. I don't know.
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Dr. Balis:
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Look. You don't have to make a decision now; we can talk about this at our next session. You need to get some rest. Go home. Drink some warm milk...
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Ms. Green:
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Warm milk?
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Dr. Balis:
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Warm milk is great. It's got serotonin in it and it will make you sleepy.
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Ms. Green:
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But I hate milk.
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Dr. Balis:
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All right. Skip the warm milk. Don't drink anything caffeinated and take the melatonin. If you're unable to sleep tonight, call me. All right?
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Ms. Green:
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Okay.
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Dr. Balis:
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Good. Now, are you going to be okay going home?
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Ms. Green:
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I think so. Sure. It's not a problem.
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Dr. Balis:
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Good. Are the police watching your house?
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Ms. Green:
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What?
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Dr. Balis:
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Never mind. Just go home. Call me tomorrow.
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Ms. Green:
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Yeah...
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Dr. Balis:
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You need to get some sleep. When was the last time you ate?
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Ms. Green:
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I'm not sure.
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Dr. Balis:
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Was it today?
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Ms. Green:
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Hmm...
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Dr. Balis:
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It's very important to eat and drink.
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Ms. Green:
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I know, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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I know you know. You have very dark circles under your eyes and you look a bit dehydrated...
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Ms. Green:
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I'm going.
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Dr. Balis:
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All right. Please take care of yourself, Anna.
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Doctor Balis' Notes on this Session
Transcripts of Anna Green's Communications
