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Ms. Green:
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Hello Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hello Anna. How was the Halloween party last night?
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Ms. Green:
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What Halloween party?
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Dr. Balis:
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Didn't you say you were going somewhere? We changed the session to today?
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Ms. Green:
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Oh no. I didn't go to a party. I just went wandering the streets with a bunch of friends. And I did have a good time, thank you. How was your Halloween?
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Dr. Balis:
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I went to check out the parade too. But I only stayed out for about half hour. It's not my kind of scene.
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Ms. Green:
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No, I imagine not. Did you wear a costume at least?
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Dr. Balis:
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I put on a lab coat and a stethoscope.
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Ms. Green:
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I see. Trying to blend in with the crowd eh?
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Dr. Balis:
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I didn't want to call attention to myself.
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Ms. Green:
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I guess you succeeded?
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Dr. Balis:
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Why don't you tell me about your Halloween. Mine really wasn't all that exciting.
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Ms. Green:
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I believe that. Maybe next year you could go as a mailman or maybe a UPS man?
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Dr. Balis:
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Thank you for the suggestions Anna. Lets talk about you.
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Ms. Green:
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I had a much better evening.
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Dr. Balis:
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Good. Why don't you tell me about it?
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Ms. Green:
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I was a bit more daring in my costume than you were, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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I'm sure.
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Ms. Green:
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I was dressed as an alien prostitute.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see.
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Ms. Green:
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I had four breasts, three eyes, gold hair down to my knees, and the most outrageous red space dress. It was really a lot of fun. It felt like I became another person for a night--more daring, more exciting, and a lot more self confidant.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did you just walk the streets dressed like that or...
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Ms. Green:
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We sort of went down Polk Street from bar to bar, looking at people's costumes and letting them admire ours. People get really friendly at times like these--sort of lose some of the social taboos. Strangers would come up to me and compliment me on my costume. Some asked how I made the second pair of breasts--were they silicone or papier-mache? There were a few that even wanted to touch them.
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Dr. Balis:
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Were they bare?
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Ms. Green:
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Of course they were. Don't look at me like that Doctor. They weren't real or anything.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm.
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Ms. Green:
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I got them at one of those kind of stores in North Beach. They are quite realistic. In any case, it was sort of liberating to put on this outrageous persona. I felt free to flirt with strangers, to start conversations...it was a lot of fun. And I felt like everything I did was anonymous somehow. Do you understand?
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Dr. Balis:
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Because no one knew who you really were?
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Ms. Green:
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Precisely! I felt free to lie to people about where I lived, what my telephone number was, even my name changed about a hundred times during the night. I felt like I could do things that I would never do in real life.
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Dr. Balis:
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What kind of things?
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Ms. Green:
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Well like talking to strangers but more. I felt very uninhibited. There was this one guy who was dressed as a cop but in an all leather uniform. He came to me and said that he wanted to arrest me. I just looked at him and asked if there was anything I could do to change his mind and I mean anything. I was saying all this in a very sultry voice trying to be as sexy as I could.
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Dr. Balis:
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Was there something you could do?
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Ms. Green:
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The pay off was a kiss. But I mean a real kiss. It was very exciting. Everyone was watching as if we were part of a movie scene. He was a complete stranger to me. But he came to me and acted out a part of a corrupt law enforcement officer. And I didn't hesitate to play my part of a street smart alien hooker. It was great fun. We were even applauded.
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Dr. Balis:
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It does sound very exciting. Are you sure it all happened the way you are describing?
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Ms. Green:
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What do you mean Doctor?
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Dr. Balis:
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Is there a fantasy component to this story?
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Ms. Green:
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No there is not. Would you like me to bring in pictures? Or would you rather talk to my friends that witnessed the whole thing?
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Dr. Balis:
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Don't get so defensive Anna. I just feel compelled to check due to our previous discussions.
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Ms. Green:
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Well do you need proof?
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Dr. Balis:
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That's fine. I trust you.
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Ms. Green:
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Are you sure? Deep down inside are you sure? Maybe I'm just trying to get you to tap your pencil again?
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Dr. Balis:
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Stop it Anna. Let's continue talking about your evening.
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Ms. Green:
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As you wish. So as I was saying, we were moving from bar to bar doing a lot of people watching. Early in the evening there were a lot of kids on the streets. They were going into the stores to get their treats. I'm always a little surprised to see kids doing that.
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Dr. Balis:
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Why is that?
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Ms. Green:
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I grew up in Davis. It's pretty small town. The kids would dress up in costumes and go from house to house. It all felt very safe--suburban Halloween. But here these little kids were among very strange adults dressed in very sexually explicit costumes.
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Dr. Balis:
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Like you.
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Ms. Green:
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Yes like me. It just made me feel very uneasy.
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Dr. Balis:
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Because of the way you were dressed?
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Ms. Green:
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I tried to cover up a bit when I saw kids walking past me. But that wasn't really it. It just felt like it was dangerous for these kids to be out on the street like that. What were their parents thinking? I would never let my kids wander the streets of San Francisco on Halloween night. It's just crazy! Anything could happen.
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Dr. Balis:
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How late was it when you saw these children?
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Ms. Green:
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I saw kids on the street until about ten or so. But most of the really young ones did go away after about eight-thirty. And there were some parents too, but still... when I have kids I will take them over my parents' where it's safe.
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Dr. Balis:
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How late did you stay out?
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Ms. Green:
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Oh we got there about seven, seven thirty or so. Walked around a bit to get a sense of what was going on. We stopped to get drinks a couple of times and to just warm up a bit. My costume was hot but it didn't provide much heat. I got really cold a couple of times and the drinks were essential to keeping me from getting completely frozen.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did you get drunk?
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Ms. Green:
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You sound like my father. I'm over eighteen you know. But no I didn't get drunk. I felt it but I was not drunk. I did get stoned later on.
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Dr. Balis:
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Oh?
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Ms. Green:
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Somebody brought some pot and I took a hit or two. Except that it was very weird.
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Dr. Balis:
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How so?
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Ms. Green:
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Well I've smoked pot before, I told you that. I'm not a heavy user or anything. I wouldn't even know how to get some if I ever wanted to. But I do have some experience however limited. I know how it should taste like and how it should feel.
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Dr. Balis:
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The stuff that you had last night was different somehow?
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Ms. Green:
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Yes it was. Usually I take a couple of puffs and I sort of feel it a little and then I stop. But last night I took two hits and I felt completely gone.
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Dr. Balis:
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What do you mean?
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Ms. Green:
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It was like time stopped existing. I mean I knew that time was passing because my watch kept showing a different time. But for my body and mind it felt like this one long stretched out moment.
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Dr. Balis:
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Where were you when this happened?
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Ms. Green:
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We were at this apartment. It was in the neighborhood and when someone mentioned getting high it made more sense to go somewhere more private. I remember it was in these dingy apartment buildings but the apartment was very nice. It had twelve foot ceilings and bay windows. There was a long corridor running down the middle with some bedrooms on each side. At the end opposite the entrance was the kitchen. We could see the street from the kitchen windows which were wide open so that the sounds and the air were pouring in. I was standing next to the window looking outside when it hit me.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm.
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Ms. Green:
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And it really did hit me. It was like one minute I was fine and having a conversation and the next I was frozen in time.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did other people react in the same way?
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Ms. Green:
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I don't know. I couldn't ask then. I couldn't do much at all at that point.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did you see what people were doing?
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Ms. Green:
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The conversation seemed to stop and everyone was touching and kissing each other. Well almost everyone. There were a few people who seemed to be as frozen as I was.
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Dr. Balis:
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So you didn't engage in any sexual activity?
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Ms. Green:
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Not exactly.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did you or didn't you?
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Ms. Green:
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Not exactly. I didn't touch anyone and no one touched me. I was watching all these people making out. Some were even openly having sex in the corners. I was watching this one couple in the corner behind the refrigerator. He was leaning against the wall and was screaming in ecstasy while this woman in a Tarzan suit was going down on him. Or it might have been a man--I'm not sure. And all of this was just happening in this no time feeling. I was watching them and it could have been a minute but it might have been an hour. My time perception really changed in a strange kind of way.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did you have any other symptoms? Dizziness? Nausea? Did your body feel strange? Sort of heavy?
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Ms. Green:
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No. I didn't feel like I lost control over my body. It just felt like I really didn't want to move. I could but I just really really didn't want to. Does it make sense?
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Dr. Balis:
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Yes.
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Ms. Green:
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And it was also not like I was having a memory lapse. I knew and saw everything that was happening around me. At least as long as it was in my line of sight--I wasn't interested or willing to move my head either.
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Dr. Balis:
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So how long do you think this state of no time lasted?
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Ms. Green:
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In about an hour I noticed that an hour had past.
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Dr. Balis:
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You spent that hour motionless, watching other people have sex?
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Ms. Green:
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Not all of them were having sex. Just some. And when I started to get my sense of time back, I realized just how much I wanted it too.
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Dr. Balis:
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Wanted to have sex?
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Ms. Green:
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I just got very turned on watching everybody. I guess that's why porno movies are so popular.
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Dr. Balis:
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What did you do?
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Ms. Green:
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I was standing with my back to the window next to the corner of the kitchen table. I sort of used the corner.
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Dr. Balis:
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You masturbated with the corner of the kitchen table?
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Ms. Green:
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Yeah.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did it work?
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Ms. Green:
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Yeah.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did you feel self conscious doing it in front of all those people?
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Ms. Green:
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I don't think anybody knew. I was very discrete.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see.
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Ms. Green:
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In fact you are the only one who really knows about this Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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Well sounds like you had quite an evening. Did you get home all right?
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Ms. Green:
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Yes. No problem.
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Dr. Balis:
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Good. Next Thursday at four then?
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Ms. Green:
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I'll be here.
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Dr. Balis:
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Good. I'll see you November 6th. Try to stay out of trouble.
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Ms. Green:
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I'll do my best Doctor. Goodbye.
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Dr. Balis:
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Goodbye Anna.
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Doctor Balis' Notes on this Session
Transcripts of Anna Green's Communications
