Dear Dr. Balis, I'm still not ready to come back. Please try to understand. So much as happened and I am feeling like such a fool. I have spent the last two weeks thinking about everything that has happened in the last 15 years and I'm just not ready to talk to you and emotionally deal with all the mess of Jeff and Robby yet. I brought the kids back home (they were really glad to get back) over the weekend, and Sunday night Jeff called. He wants to see the kids, which I've agreed to let him do on Wednesday afternoon. He's picking the kids up at school and spending some time with them until I get home from work. I made him promise not to tell the kids anything until he and I have talked. The kids really haven't questioned too much what is going on. I think they know without asking that mommy and daddy are getting a divorce. The whole gay thing has me really worried. It's one thing for kids' parents to get a divorce, but I'm not sure they need to know daddy is gay right now. Of course, if Jeff moves in with Robby, it may be difficult to explain. I finally talked to my parents over the weekend about what was going on. As I suspected, my father wants Jeff's head on a platter. Robby's too, for that matter! Mother is worried that all this stress will bring on another heart attack, but I tried to assure her that I'm actually feeling pretty well. Yes I'm pissed, angry, humiliated, and a variety of other well-defining adjectives, but I do feel semi in-control of the situation. I certainly won't fight the divorce, which I'm sure Jeff will want right away, but I'm finished playing the fool and I'm not about to let him take advantage of me. If he wants to go play house with Robby, that's fine, but he's going to pay for it dearly! I will call you in a few days and set up an appointment. I just need a few more days to get my head on straight (besides, I need a refill on my prescription). See you soon! Sarah

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