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Dr. Balis:
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Hello, Anna.
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Ms. Green:
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Hello, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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What happened to you last week?
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Ms. Green:
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Why?
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Dr. Balis:
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You weren't here.
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Ms. Green:
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Oh, I thought I called you. We went on that company vacation I told you about. Remember?
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Dr. Balis:
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You told me about it, but you never said when you were going.
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Ms. Green:
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I'm sorry. I can clearly remember...with everything, I'm amazed that I'm as together as I seem.
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Dr. Balis:
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Yeah. Well, shall we start?
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Ms. Green:
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Sure.
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Dr. Balis:
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Your four week deadline is up; have you moved?
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Ms. Green:
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Yes.
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Dr. Balis:
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That's great, Anna.
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Ms. Green:
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I'll write down my new address for you before I go.
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Dr. Balis:
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Okay. And how did it go?
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Ms. Green:
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Well Friday, the day after our last session, my dad called and told me that a friend of his, a professor at UCSF, is going to Europe for a semester. He was looking for someone to housesit for him. They don't want to rent the house out because they are worried about San Francisco rent control laws and stuff, and his wife feels funny about letting strangers sleep on their bed--they don't want to pack up all their stuff. I can understand that. So my dad told them that I was looking for a place, and here I am.
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Dr. Balis:
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That's a good break.
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Ms. Green:
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Yeah. It's a bit more bizarre than it seems, though.
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Dr. Balis:
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How's that?
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Ms. Green:
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Well, my dad came up that weekend and took me over to meet them. And guess what?
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Dr. Balis:
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What?
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Ms. Green:
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The mild-mannered professor and his nice nice housewife belong to my S&M club. Of course, it was a bit hard to recognize him at first, since I've only seen the guy naked with a leather collar and cuffs.
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Dr. Balis:
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Oh.
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Ms. Green:
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It was very charming. My dad didn't know a thing while his friend was just squirming. It was a scene.
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Dr. Balis:
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I can only imagine.
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Ms. Green:
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But they were very nice to me, very nice. I basically get to live in this huge Victorian in lower Pacific Heights rent free. I have to pay for the utilities and that's all.
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Dr. Balis:
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Sounds like a great deal.
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Ms. Green:
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It gets even better. I get full use of their dungeon!
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Dr. Balis:
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Really?
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Ms. Green:
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Their in-law unit has been completely transformed into this nicely outfitted dungeon. And now it's all mine.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see. Does your father...
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Ms. Green:
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He doesn't suspect a thing. The rest of the house is as vanilla as it could get. And Professor Zutkin was so freaked when he recognized me. You should have seen him--his hands were shaking and his face was all the colors of the rainbow. When his wife took my dad out to check out the garden in the back, he expressed great concern that someone from the university community might find out about his alternative lifestyle. I told him that he had nothing to worry about from me and that my dad doesn't suspect a thing. If he did, he would never have taken me there. He was so happy that he let me have the place basically for free.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm.
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Ms. Green:
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But I'm not allowed to throw any S&M parties there, although I can have a guest or two for play, if you know what I mean.
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Dr. Balis:
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I do. But I was hoping that once you move away from Martin and Kathy, you'd stop with these experimentations.
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Ms. Green:
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I know you were hoping that. But I told you before, I like it. And I like it despite everything that happened with Martin and Kathy. I'm not saying that I'll get all fanatical about it. I'm not going to change my lifestyle to accommodate the full range of my secret desires. But having my personal dungeon is very nice. You can come and visit sometime.
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Dr. Balis:
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Thank you, I think I'll pass.
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Ms. Green:
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As you like. But it has some very nice toys.
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Dr. Balis:
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I'm sure. So tell me more about the move. How did Kathy and Martin take it?
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Ms. Green:
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I guess as you would expect. Martin acted as though he knew it all the time. He helped me pack and move my things over to the house. It was all very friendly. Friendly and cold at the same time. It was as if we were just roommates and nothing more. I was very happy that Caren and Greg showed up to help me move and I didn't have to deal with Martin all alone.
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Dr. Balis:
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Why?
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Ms. Green:
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If I was given a chance, I feel like I would have gone off and done something very emotional and ultimately stupid. This way, it was all very civilized.
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Dr. Balis:
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What do you think you would have done?
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Ms. Green:
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I'm not sure. Something stupid. I don't want to talk about that, Doctor. I feel if I get into this, I'll just make myself live through this imaginary nightmare that I so neatly avoided in real life. So let's move on.
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Dr. Balis:
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All right. Tell me about Kathy.
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Ms. Green:
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Well, that wasn't as clean as Martin.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm.
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Ms. Green:
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I don't know what her trip is. She was more than just upset when I made my announcement.
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Dr. Balis:
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What do you mean?
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Ms. Green:
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Well, the last few weeks, she's been all edgy and jumpy. She kept trying to talk to me, and I kept avoiding her. Then my dad came and took me away for all of Saturday. And in the evening, we drove to Davis for Easter and Sunday Brunch. Happy Easter, by the way.
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Dr. Balis:
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Thank you. Happy Easter to you.
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Ms. Green:
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Thank you. I rented a car for the week and left for Calistoga directly from my parents' house.
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Dr. Balis:
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That's the company get away?
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Ms. Green:
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Yes. It was very nice, but a story in itself.
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Dr. Balis:
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I would like to hear about it.
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Ms. Green:
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Sure, I'll be happy to tell you all about it. But let me finish up with Kathy.
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Dr. Balis:
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Sorry, go ahead.
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Ms. Green:
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This Monday, I drove directly to work. So I wasn't home for over a week.
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Dr. Balis:
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Okay.
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Ms. Green:
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Monday night, I made my announcement, packed, and got ready to move first thing Tuesday--I wanted to use my rental car to help me move. In any case, Kathy didn't get any opportunity to confront me. After I told them that I was moving out, Kathy just sort of curled up in a ball in the corner by the window. She was sitting in the same position completely catatonic when I said my goodbyes and left the following morning.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm.
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Ms. Green:
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I'm sure it's not the last I'm going to hear from her. But she doesn't really know where I live now, and that's good.
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Dr. Balis:
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But Martin knows.
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Ms. Green:
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I didn't particularly want him to help me move for that reason. I thought it might be better if he didn't know where I lived either. But he insisted, and I couldn't say no. He took a day off from work to help me without any notice.
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Dr. Balis:
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How nice of him.
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Ms. Green:
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I showed him the dungeon while Caren and Greg weren't looking. He thought it was very nice, too.
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Dr. Balis:
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I bet. But Caren and Greg don't know about it?
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Ms. Green:
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They don't approve of my S&M tendencies, so why cause trouble?
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Dr. Balis:
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I see.
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Ms. Green:
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I could just say that part of the house is not available to me. They don't have to know. And I don't have the use of the garage anyway--The Zutkins are storing their cars there, and I can't use them. So it's not like it's suspicious or anything.
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Dr. Balis:
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No, it's not. But Caren and Greg are your friends. They will be around to help you get over...
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Ms. Green:
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I'm not planning to have a big emotional drama over Martin, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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Do you feel like you've gotten over him already?
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Ms. Green:
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I think so.
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Dr. Balis:
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Oh.
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Ms. Green:
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You don't have to believe me, Doctor. But I feel pretty confident right now.
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Dr. Balis:
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I'm glad.
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Ms. Green:
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And Calistoga really helped.
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Dr. Balis:
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So tell me what happened?
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Ms. Green:
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Aren't we out of time, Doctor?
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Dr. Balis:
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You're my last patient for today, so you can continue if you like.
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Ms. Green:
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Well, I guess.
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Dr. Balis:
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Good.
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Ms. Green:
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Remember I told you about David?
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Dr. Balis:
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Sure.
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Ms. Green:
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Well, I made a very strong impression on that poor, sheltered boy.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm.
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Ms. Green:
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I told you that he just blurted the whole S&M thing to my entire department?
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Dr. Balis:
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Yes, you did. You even said that Julian came to have a little talk with you.
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Ms. Green:
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Yes, he did. Well, everyone in the department just wanted to know more about this whole S&M thing: "How does it feel? Does it really hurt? Can you have an orgasm that way? Is it fun?" Just millions of questions. So every night, we would get together after dinner, and the whole department would sit in the hot tub and talk S&M. It was very strange but fun. I was the complete center of attention. I was their expert on this subject--that was nice for a change. And, best of all, I was basically the only female there.
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Dr. Balis:
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You were?
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Ms. Green:
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I'm the only female in our programming group. The only married person is Julian, and he brought his wife with him so he couldn't really lounge with us at night. But I had a blast.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see.
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Ms. Green:
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And just to make it completely democratic, I left my bathing suit at home.
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Dr. Balis:
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Really?
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Ms. Green:
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You've seen my breasts, Doctor. They're pretty nice, don't you think? Do you want to take another look?
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Dr. Balis:
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No, you're right. It's getting late...
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Ms. Green:
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I knew you would feel that way as soon as I started to talk about my breasts.
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Dr. Balis:
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Anna...
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Ms. Green:
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Have a nice evening, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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All right. Good night, Anna.
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Doctor Balis' Notes on this Session
Transcripts of Anna Green's Communications
