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Dr. Balis:
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Hello, Decker. How are you this week?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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I'm feeling okay, just a little tired. I think I may be coming down with a cold. I'm not sure yet, though.
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Dr. Balis:
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Did anything exciting happen this past week?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Not really. It was a fairly uneventful week. This may be a boring session for you, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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Why do you say that?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Well, I haven't had any flashbacks with Simian, or any rage outbursts, so I don't have anything that you can question. Actually, I felt like a normal human being this week. Kind of scary, huh?
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Dr. Balis:
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I'm glad you had a good week. How have you been sleeping lately?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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I get about five to six hours a night. That's an eternity compared to what I used to get. Plus, the new place I got is really quiet.
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Dr. Balis:
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Yes, I've been meaning to ask you. You had an appointment to see an apartment. I guess it went well?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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It went really well. The man that showed me the place was very nice. He seemed to like me, and I definitely liked him. The place was a little run down, but I liked it. It's just a little loft with a nice view, and the other tenants in the building are mostly students. I've actually had a visitor since I've moved in.
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Dr. Balis:
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Already?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Yeah. He had a weird name. Telso, I think--he was kind of hard to understand. He had a Spanish accent. I mean a deep Spanish accent. He was nice, though. He just came up to welcome me. I thought that was very nice. I was watching a football game at the time, and he joined me. We had a couple of beers--which he brought--and had a good time. It was nice. I felt normal.
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Dr. Balis:
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Good.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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I think I'm adjusting well. I feel more comfortable with people. I still don't talk as much as I would like to. But hey, I'm not complaining. I tried something new, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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And what would that be?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Well, I wondered if I should tell you. I don't think you are going to like it too much, but what the hell. Promise me you won't bite my head off for this one. I just tried it. It's something I've always wanted to try.
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Dr. Balis:
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What is it, Decker?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Telso and I smoked a joint.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm. And what did you think?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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A lot. I'm surprised, Doctor. I thought you would flip over this one.
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Dr. Balis:
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I'm unhappy about it, Decker. But there's not much I can do about it in retrospect. I don't approve of recreational drug use. And especially in your situation, Decker, when you're taking risperidone, it can be very dangerous. I hope this will never happen again.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Drugs, Doctor? Let me tell you, the joint I smoked made me feel a hell of a lot better then the drugs you gave me. Doctor, let's not get angry here. I see it in your face. I'm just messing with you. I smoked the joint because I wanted to know what the big deal was. I found out. So now you shouldn't worry about me becoming a heroin addict or something--it's over and done with. Sometimes, I get the impression that you think I'm only a kid. I'm almost twenty-seven. Let me try these things, Doctor. I don't need to have you tell me the dangers. I already know what they are. I never had a chance to experiment with anything--sex, drugs, even rock and roll. Karen never let me even have a radio, let alone compact discs. I'm beginning to like my life.
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Dr. Balis:
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I understand your desire to experiment with new things, Decker. But please keep in mind that you have a problem. What might be okay for some to try once, may have disastrous effects on you. You have to be a lot more careful than most. This doesn't mean that you shouldn't play the music you like, or have sex, or enjoy other types of entertainment. But you have to stay away from drugs and alcohol, too. Understand?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Yeah. Thanks, Doc. Do you think we can cut this short? I really don't have anything that I need to discuss--I had a boring week.
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Dr. Balis:
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I don't think it's a good idea, Decker. We only see each other once a week, that's not a lot of time.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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But...
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Dr. Balis:
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I know that therapy feels like hard work sometimes. But it is work and...
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Doctor, I just don't want to. Okay? Nothing happened to me this last week...
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Dr. Balis:
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And what about your experiments with pot?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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God, it was nothing. I wish I didn't bother mentioning it to you. I've got to go now.
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Dr. Balis:
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And what about your date with Chris?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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See you next week, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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Decker? Decker!
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Doctor Balis' Notes on this Session
Transcripts of Decker Jenkins' Communications
