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Mr. Jenkins:
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Dr. Balis please?
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Dr. Balis:
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This is Dr. Balis. Can I help you?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Dr. Balis? This is Decker...Decker Jenkins. Do you remember me?
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Dr. Balis:
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Of course, Decker! How are you? It's been a few weeks since we last talked. Are you doing all right?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Yes, Doctor, I'm fine. Thank you for asking. I'm sorry that it has taken so long for me to get in touch with you. It's just that I had the scare of my life and I didn't know where to turn or go.
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Dr. Balis:
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I can understand that Decker, but I've told you in the past that you can call me at any time for any reason.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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I know, Doctor, everyone says that. But how many people really mean it? Most people are just trying to be nice, that's all.
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Dr. Balis:
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Well that may be, but I am being sincere when I say that you can turn to me, Decker.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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I would like to thank you for helping me while I was in jail.
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Dr. Balis:
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I really didn't do anything, Decker.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Sure you did. You made sure that the jail people gave me my medication.
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Dr. Balis:
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Well, I really felt you needed it, especially since you were in jail and the stress and fear must have been unbearable.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Well, it really wasn't all that bad now that I look back on it. They treated me very nicely. I don't think they thought I did it from the very beginning.
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Dr. Balis:
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Then why do you think they kept you in jail?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Because I kept insisting that I did do it. They pretty much had to convince me that I didn't. The more time I spent in there, and the more medication I took, the more relaxed I became and I began to think rationally. I realized that I am generally a decent person. Maybe I have a few problems--maybe even a few more than the average person. But I wouldn't kill a fly, let alone kill Karen. It was pretty ridiculous to think that I could have killed her now that it's all over.
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Dr. Balis:
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You're out of jail, I assume.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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That's correct, Doctor. I was only in for about three days. Before you ask your next question, let me answer it for you. I spent the rest of the time floating around the city. Sleeping in alleys and homeless shelters. I didn't want to go back to Karen's house. I mean, after all, she did get murdered there and I didn't need the fear of her ghost haunting me. So I roamed the city. I saw many people with a lot worse problems than I have. I decided to go talk to Mr. Knopff. I didn't know if he would be mad at me about ditching him and all that, but I had to know if I at least still had a friend.
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Dr. Balis:
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And what happened?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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He accepted me with open arms. It's truly a great feeling when you know that someone in this world cares. He's letting me stay with him in his apartment above the bar. It's nothing real fancy--just a two bedroom apartment with a kitchen and a nice little living area. I think I could call it home for a while. He also let me have my job back on the condition that I continue to see you. So I guess that's why I'm calling--to ask you if I can begin to talk to you again?
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Dr. Balis:
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Certainly, Decker. I never considered you a former patient. I was hoping you would call soon. I've been worried about you.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Well, let me reassure you, Doctor, that I'm fine. As a matter of fact, I feel pretty good. Simian is all but non-existent these days. He only bothers me once in a while and that is very comfortable. Karen's no longer breathing down my back nor is Simian. It's rather refreshing. I somehow feel like I have more energy. I'm not fighting with my mind anymore. However, I do feel I still have long way to go. I need to be able to interact with society and I'd like to find a girlfriend. I know that sounds funny to you, Doctor, but I have never had a girlfriend and I'd like to experience that before God decides to take me. It's just that I have all these goals that I want to achieve and I feel I need your help. Does this make any sense to you, Dr. Balis?
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Dr. Balis:
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Of course it does, and I am very willing to help you reach those goals, Decker. It's great to hear that you're focused on achieving and correcting the problems that you have. However, there are a few things I'd like to ask you.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Thank you, Dr. Balis. Sure, ask away.
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Dr. Balis:
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I need to know if you are still having thoughts of killing yourself.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Not at all, Doctor. Like I told you before, that's a "last measure" type of thing. I am a long, long way from that.
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Dr. Balis:
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That is very good to hear. May I ask how it is that you were cleared of Karen's murder?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Well, that's sort of a long story. If you don't mind I'd rather get into that during my sessions.
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Dr. Balis:
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That's fine, Decker. If the time is still good for you, how about we continue to meet on Thursdays at 10:00 am?
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Mr. Jenkins:
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That should be fine. Again, I'd like to thank you Doctor just for being there.
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Dr. Balis:
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Thanks, Decker. I'll see you on Thursday at 10:00 am.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Yes Doctor. I'll be there.
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Dr. Balis:
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Great. Goodbye, Decker.
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Mr. Jenkins:
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Goodbye, Dr. Balis.
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Doctor Balis' Notes on this Telephone Call
Transcripts of Decker Jenkins' Communications
